The (ever-growing) lists

 

수전 손탁은 자신이 좋아하는 것과 싫어하는 것들의 목록을 적었다고 한다. 그는 자신의 일기에 "나는 가치를 인지하고, 부여하고, 창조하며, 더 나아가 무언가를 존재하게 하거나 그의 존재를 보증하기까지 한다. 그리하여 "목록"을 작성하고자 하는 충동이 인다"고 기록했다. 

아래는 그 중 일부이다.

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In As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 Susan Sontag shares her thoughts. In her diary entry for August 9, 1967, Sontag explains why she enjoys making lists:

I perceive value, I confer value, I create value, I even create – or guarantee – existence. Hence, my compulsion to make ‘lists’. The things (Beethoven’s music, movies, business firms) won’t exist unless I signify my interest in them by at least noting down their names.

Nothing exists unless I maintain it (by my interest, or my potential interest). This is an ultimate, mostly subliminal anxiety. Hence, I must remain always, both in principle + actively, interested in everything. Taking all of knowledge as my province.

... on February 21, 1977, Sontag wrote her list of likes and dislikes:

Things I like: fires, Venice, tequila, sunsets, babies, silent films, heights, coarse salt, top hats, large long-haired dogs, ship models, cinnamon, goose down quilts, pocket watches, the smell of newly mown grass, linen, Bach, Louis XIII furniture, sushi, microscopes, large rooms, ups, boots, drinking water, maple sugar candy.

Things I dislike: sleeping in an apartment alone, cold weather, couples, football games, swimming, anchovies, mustaches, cats, umbrellas, being photographed, the taste of licorice, washing my hair (or having it washed), wearing a wristwatch, giving a lecture, cigars, writing letters, taking showers, Robert Frost, German food.

Things I like: ivory, sweaters, architectural drawings, urinating, pizza (the Roman bread), staying in hotels, paper clips, the color blue, leather belts, making lists, Wagon-Lits, paying bills, caves, watching ice-skating, asking questions, taking taxis, Benin art, green apples, office furniture, Jews, eucalyptus trees, pen knives, aphorisms, hands.

Things I dislike: Television, baked beans, hirsute men, paperback books, standing, card games, dirty or disorderly apartments, flat pillows, being in the sun, Ezra Pound, freckles, violence in movies, having drops put in my eyes, meatloaf, painted nails, suicide, licking envelopes, ketchup, traversins [“bolsters”], nose drops, Coca-Cola, alcoholics, taking photographs.

Things I like: drums, carnations, socks, raw peas, chewing on sugar cane, bridges, Dürer, escalators, hot weather, sturgeon, tall people, deserts, white walls, horses, electric typewriters, cherries, wicker / rattan furniture, sitting cross-legged, stripes, large windows, fresh dill, reading aloud, going to bookstores, under-furnished rooms, dancing, Ariadne auf Naxos.

(source: https://flashbak.com/susan-sontag-lists-her-likes-and-dislikes-1977-461431)  

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나도 앞으로는 이 페이지에 내게 존재하는 것들의 목록을 적어보고자 한다.

Things I like:

Crossing Han river on subway line 2 with seats scarcely occupied by passengers

Sunny days

Dry, hot summer days

Wearing long sleeves (pullover or hoodies) over a pair of short jeans or a mini skirt

Unplanned, spontaneous meetups with friends

Also a prescheduled date with a guy I’m interested in

Me in a well-fitted shape

Tanned skin with sun-kissed blush and freckles

Tender medium-rare steak with lots of grilled veggies

Fulfilling selfmade brunch

Sheer stockings and thick socks

Flat shoes and snickers

Rough sex

Tender strokes through hair or on my back

Architecture 

Furniture by architects

Vintage goods

Sharing favorites with friends

Butter

Milk

Ice cream

Mild cheese of any sort

Spices

International markets

Local food

Long walk

Dresses

High-waist pants

Corduroy

Floating on water - pool, stream, river, ocean

P.F. candles

Apotheke incense sticks

Film photographs

Grand galleries

Small wrist watches

Fleece on the inside of clothes

Going to bookstores

Libraries

Dinosaurs

Deep-sea creatures

Reading my blog posts over and over again

Seeing a post about a new post on my friends' blog

Things I dislike: 

Delayed promises

People pushing their way into a subway car even before passengers get off first

Subway passengers who stand in front of a door, right in the middle of the doorway, and do not move even when other passengers trying to get off or get on

Stench from wet garbage and not-properly-dried clothes

Being fat - lumps of belly fat and shallow valley along the spine on the back

Feeling poor - getting anxious and thus depressed when summing up the balances of my bank accounts

Guys who make me anxious, hasty, and hate myself

Insects

Blood-bound relationships

Doing dishes

Mopping

Dust

Workout

Goodbyes

Coming home alone after 12 a.m.

Being left alone after sex

Cold shower

Compulsive shopping